yeah, thats right folks.. Spyda is broke and needs some cash pronto!
so anyone who wants some commissions , hit me up!
either 11x17 or 8.5x11, your choice

Rates:

quick sketches- $10 :thumb92219692:
pinups- $40 :thumb13577858:
pages- $80 :thumb32692089:
Sculpts- $150-300 :thumb13481959:

now lets talk shop!

Ok, i know i have a great group of loyal watches here, and i thank you all for your support

but i have come to realize that i am way under-exposed.. I have been a member of DA for 6 years and i only have 30k page views.. i know some ppl dont have that much, but it has been brought to my attention more than once that my pageview number was low.. whats the deal? i dont get it.
i know i dont post frequently, but would that keep my number so low?
is my work not quality enough, or is it just not what the people are looking for?
I'd really appreciate some insight on this.. and maybe some tips at getting more people to check my stuff out...

Thanks guys, youre the best.

-Spyda!

Yes i know i'm never on DA anymore, but here i am to tell you guys that my website is now live, and i would love it if you all went to go give it a look see.
love ya!

[link]

still hasn't settled in.
it still feels like shes just out of town or something.
my brain knows exactly whats happening, but my emotions cant accept it.

i'm not a writer of poetry, or prose.. all i can do is state my thoughts in blurbs.

she was only 49, if you'd have seen her 3 weeks ago you wouldnt even expect there was remotely a problem, she was active, fun.
2 weeks in the hospital
2 weeks of tests, and waiting
2 weeks of wondering why these guy aren't working faster.
thanksgiving i took her a sweet potato pie.. she couldn't eat her slice, but she loved it nonetheless
that was the day we were supposed to put up out Christmas decorations.
i told her the family would wait til she gets home...
she's not home, she was supposed to be here Friday, after they cured her of the Lymphoma.
that what it took 2 weeks to find... 2 weeks, if only they hand found it the first week.
but no.. 2 weeks of tests and waiting.
15th day, i get the call.
worst call i had ever received.
14th day, they said it was an easy fix.
i never imagined how hard it would be to go get your brother out of school to tell him that our mother is gone.

my only saving grace is that the night before, i cried in her arms and told her that i love her, and i got to hear her tell me she loves me one final time.


thankyou to all of who who contacted me.. i know that there are no words you can say to me to make it better, and i know how it is to be in the position of "i dont know what to say".
but knowing you are all there for me, is just enough.

what can i say...

this morning, Dec 4th 2007, around 8am..

shes gone.. i can't even fathom what i am feeling right now.

i havent fully accepted it, nor has it really hit me.

so confused.

rest in peace, mommy